I know I've made a lot of bad decisions in the past but tonight... God. Tonight was one of those rare moments in life when you think, "Hey, I'm on the right path. I'm where I'm supposed to be right now."


I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, if anything's gonna pull through, but this moment alone is worth every bad day and every wrong decision. I realize now that those wrong decisions weren't really wrong actually, that ultimately they were good and have led me here, in this good place... Sorry, I am just, really happy right now, it's so fucking corny :)) I don't think I'm even making sense :))

And I'm so... Just, lately, I've been beating myself up a lot about a lot of things and, feeling this way is a nice break. :] Thank you, thank you.

It makes me sad that I haven't written here in a while. Because I don't really understand why.





It's not because of a lack of activity, a lot has been going on, good and bad and great, and I've made some mistakes again, and decisions that I thought were okay. It's just that, I haven't felt like writing. At all. Or more like, I don't know what to say.

I have this theory that maybe it's because everything's happening so fast (I've actually been making them go faster than they need to). Everything's been happening so fast and, I'm too overwhelmed to say anything...

... That makes me sound like I'm constantly lost at sea or something, but, in my defense, it's not constantly. It's just, once in a while. I guess, I'm not used to being so uncertain. I sorta thought that I left this kind of uncertainty in grade school.

But anyway, here's to getting back on my feet. Uncertainty be damned.